This Is a Set-Up

I had a “spiritual experience” a few days ago. I talk to God a lot, and sometimes I even feel like He talks back (He probably would do that more if I shut up and listened more consistently), but I haven’t had one of those sort of inexplicable mini-epiphanies where I sense something about God that usually makes me cry a little, in a long time.

I’m going to tell you about it, soon, except it reminded me of some blog posts I wrote on the old blog when I did NaNoWriMo the first time (in 2009). So, since my friend Jayne is here from London and we’re doing fun sight-seeing-y things and stuff, I’m going to reblog two of those posts before I talk about what I want to talk about. They have to do with NaNo, and they have to do with my upcoming topic and they have to do with Christmas, so it seems like a good idea. Plus, I have a sort of different readership than I did the first time around, so I’m curious to know what you think about what I thought. Here’s the first one (with some edits for clarity):

Unloved Characters

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I actually hope the workings of God’s mind are more complex than this. And mine, too.

Sometimes there are things you know, and then there are things that you confirm by doing, and I can certainly confirm, now, that a writer, a story-teller, an artist, might craft something solely to exorcise his or her own “demons.” (Or, you know, zombies or whatever.) But here’s something else I discovered through the whole NaNoWriMo project:

If the author doesn’t care about the characters, nothing is going to happen to them.

I suppose it’s not really a coincidence that right before NaNoWriMo [2009] started, I read Donald Miller‘s new book, A Million Miles in a Thousand Years. (Or is it A Million Years in a Thousand Miles? Or something else? I can never remember. The book was better than the title.) Miller (or maybe his friend Jordan, actually: chapter eight, page 48) defines story as “a character who wants something and overcomes conflict to get it.”

He makes the point that conflict is a necessary part of story, and if God is telling The Story, and He wants it to be a good Story, then there’s going to be conflict. He even kind of implies or maybe even states outright that at least some of the time God puts the conflict right in there.

It’s maybe a little presumptuous to imagine that every life experience I have can turn into a point-by-point analogy about God. On the other hand, even though I don’t agree with a friend of mine that image-of-God necessitates God actually behaving exactly like human beings (or that we always behave exactly like God), I do think it means that we can learn things about God through our experiences and even our reactions or those of others.

So, while I was writing the Story That Shall Likely Never See the Light of Day (oh wait–that’s kind of all my stories except Trees), it finally dawned on me that if God is really a storyteller, it’s not very likely that this story is just His way of working out His own issues. And I’ll tell you why.

I do believe there is something cathartic about storytelling and that you can process what you are going through by telling a story. But if that’s all it is–if it’s just a psychological-healing exercise–if there’s no actual story being unearthed in its own right, as Stephen King describes it, it’s kind of rubbish. It ends up like the “story” I wrote during NaNoWriMo–boring. If I don’t care about the characters (which I discovered I didn’t last month), I can’t be bothered . . . or even think how to . . . find out what they want or what conflict they need to overcome to get it. I don’t know them, who they are, what they like, even if I’m writing from their points of view. Their personalities change from one day to the next, not because they are developing as characters but because they are subject to my allegory which, it turns out, isn’t a very good one. In a sense, we (the characters and I, too) are slaves to the story, but since it is a lame story, we’re all just stuck and bored. In the end the whole thing–characters, story and author–
grind to a screeching halt.

If you’re in a frame of mind which makes you think God’s writing you a lousy story, you might wish for it to grind to a screeching halt, or think that it already has done, but whatever got you to that point, though painful, was probably not boring, and just might have affected your character a little bit. And I will also posit that it doesn’t mean God hates you, or that He is indifferent to you. To hate a character, I feel, requires too much energy and the author might then just as well become indifferent to him or her. And indifference, as I’ve said, does not elicit conflict or suffering–or peace, either. It elicits boredom and lack of resolution.

I’m not trying to justify God in this particular post, nor am I trying to minimise anybody’s pain, because what do I really know about it? I am saying that, from the perspective of “creates worlds,” I think it’s pretty unlikely that all this creation is a cosmic attempt to sort out the psychological convolutions of the Divine. I thought it was unlikely before, in theory. Now I think it in practice.

A few more writerly thoughts on this still to come.

9 thoughts on “This Is a Set-Up

  1. Well, I am in the set-up and I am not sure if He is paying attention, even if he is indifferent. Maybe this is the setup, this disconnect. Beautifully written: it set me thinking hard!

    • Well yeah, there is that. Although I wonder if God, though not insufficient in Himself, has allowed Himself to have issues by allowing Himself to love us, fickle and easily-distractable beings that we are.

  2. God must be mighty bored, being omnipotent and omniscient too. So creating a race of untouchables-by-Him, with, as you suggest, in-built conflict to boot, sounds very much like a deity’s equivalent of a soap opera. That, for me, would answer a lot, were it not for the fact — which I do hope you won’t hold against me — that I’m an atheist.

    One of the several stories in my head that I’ve not yet got a round tuit for yet (and am unlikely to) is where the ‘bored god’ splits himself into many parts and then vicariously lives through each life from birth to death (because he can), simply to avoid the tedious boredom of infinity. (In that particular yarn, you, me, everyone: we are all god.)

    • Interesting. I don’t think God is bored at all. I’m not actually sure where you got the “race of untouchables-by-Him” thing from what I wrote. Explain? You might be sort of (?) right about the soap opera, though. As for the atheist thing–well, I’ve been a missionary, but I don’t hold anyone’s belief choices AGAINST them. I just pray for them. Lucky you. 🙂

      You should probably write that story. It sounds interesting.

      • O.o … a ‘missionary’? *Gulp* this could be dangerous, you might try converting me (I warn you in advance, you’d be wasting your time).

        So, explanation re: the “race of untouchables-by-Him” thing. It’s not from what you wrote; it’s the way I see it (and one reason why I do not believe there can be a benevolent deity); if there is a god, he clearly has a hands-off policy. Even when 25,000+ of those ‘made in his likeness’ are left in pain and misery, to die unnecessarily of hunger (in a world with more than enough food) or diseases (that, for some, are no longer an issue). Every. Single. Day. And that’s just the neglect side of our so-called ‘civilisation’; it doesn’t touch on all the deliberate suffering caused for the love of money.

        • After dating one of your ilk on and off for a long time (with much love but little idea how best to offer it, and with even more complications), I am no longer under any illusions that *I* can convert anybody. (That’s what the praying’s for. 🙂 ) I still like to talk about Jesus, though.

          I’m familiar with your argument. I even understand it. I don’t think it presents the whole picture, but . . . you told me I’d be wasting my time trying to convert you.


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